Redefining Abstractions: Messed Up

Saturday, December 13

Messed Up

at 12:27 am

I am all messed up.. That is all what I know as for now..

May be I dunno how to handle emotions, or I just feel, this time the gush of the flow is too heavy to handle..

I am in a kind of awkward situation. I am big time mixed up. I dunno which emotion to pick up..

I am furious, I dunno why..

I am low, I dunno why..

I feel saved, I thank God for it..

I wanna cry, but tears dun help me...

I wanna scream, but dun feel like even opening my mouth..

I feel nauseated...

I have exhausted myself, but still I dont feel like sleeping..

Though it is something, I never dignified enough to even talk about, I thought it had stopped affecting me.. But I just dont understand...

I am writing it, I thought, writing it up could help me understand what exactly am I feeling...

Emotions... I guess this is what happens when emotions take over, and you generally avoid the encounter with them.. I thought I am stronger, and I can very well take care of my emotions rather than being 'emotional fool'... But that could be done only when yon understand what you are going through.. The sudden and such random outburst of the 'dam' that held back emotions is not acceptable..

My reticence has slipped to the background somewhere.. This certainly is not 'Being Richa'..

I dint wanna publish this post, but somehow I feel, I need the feedback..

I could close the comments to this post, but somehow, I think I need the feedback...

December has been full of emotions on lower notes, I hope they end with the year too... But Cha.alo, I'll manage, or say I have to...

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13 Obiter Dicta (Comment here):

Anonymous said...: Vent out emotions, dont bottle them up...

And just back urself in this trying times. half the battle wud be won...

dont loose ur patience wid urself, 10000 gunah maaf hote he khud ko khud ke liye...

if possible try to get out of the situations leading u to this....

and dont think much, let things happen as they r....

switch off the things, go do the things u wanna do w/o botherin much abt the world!!

catch a movie, go shoppin, do watever what pampers u up!!

and dont cave into wot ppl say!! u, the bEST friend of urself is the BEST judge for urself!!

tk care and GOD bless!!; 13 December 2008 at 7:37 am
Arjun said...: You know what.. Everybody gets into such situations....

With time, u would feel better becos this patch would only make the better times better...

Actually, i dont know how to comment on such issues... But one small thing i personally try to follow is to- Try to keep things simple..... Tat will make a light heart out of u....

And yeah..!! By writing, more than others, u discover more about u...

Cheers..!!
Arjun; 13 December 2008 at 10:40 am
lukkydivz said...: ask me, writing down AND publishing what u feel sure helps richa :)
and well negative or positive someone said- emotions are STRENGTH :)
plz takecare :(; 13 December 2008 at 11:01 am
Pankhuri said...: oyyy..
whats rong dear...?!?!
hopin dat evrythngz fine soon..!!!
cheers..!!!!; 13 December 2008 at 12:08 pm
Sruthisagar Yamunan said...: Take it easy...; 13 December 2008 at 12:38 pm
Pranav Kumar V said...: Its simple!! Just inhale.... and exhale... :P

Or try this, wake up all of a sudden from an idle position, run like crazy for 30 secs. and come and drop dead on the couch. You're as clean as spring water!! Your head may spin like crazy after this, but its worth a shot!! Happened to me this morning!! :D

See you when I see you... :); 13 December 2008 at 1:59 pm
Rushabhh Gandhi said...: E x p e c t a t i o n s

Remove this from everyone and you will be cheerful again!; 13 December 2008 at 2:09 pm
Viks said...: I'll say the same..
Expectations..lower 'em, if not totally remove 'em..they are the root cause of all emotional lows..
Meanwhile just switch off..DO a few girlie-kidddie stuff..
N still if the situation persists..
Well, just be a 'GEET' n flush it out..watever it is..tc.; 13 December 2008 at 5:26 pm
Jagjit said...: oho! why mixed up. do u have a real reason for it, or is it just one of those confusing times when u dont know wy u're sad? then thats just a phase. it will pass. watch some stupid (real supid) movies like Yuvvraaj.. you'll fell mch better :P (i knw u watche it already, and watching it again is real torture)... or try calling customer care executives and ask them about plans that don't exist... once i made them all nuts about asking them about "The earth plan" (of course it didnt exist) but I am sure i made them talking about it. :P live stupiddd...is wht i suggest :P tc.. byeee; 13 December 2008 at 7:57 pm
Gauri Mathur said...: hey Richie Rich!
Dont worry atall it happens with all o us sometimes,,.
Its a Phase which comes in everbodies life with lots of new teachings,,which helps us to live life in a better way.
keep smiling!!:)
God bless you.
take careee
Hugssss:-)); 13 December 2008 at 10:24 pm
Mayank said...: Hey dear,i told u earlier, U remember....

Chal koi na. I wanna share that couple of days back, i was struggling with myself for many days..... But later on, NewsPaper and food helps me to get back on normal routine...

U'll find ur own way for that....; 13 December 2008 at 11:53 pm
The Happy Human Jellyfish said...: Ugh.
I think I know how you feel.
I wish I were a robot sometimes.
No feelings, nothing!
But we aren't.
So, get out. Talk to someone.
An idle mind is a devils workshop.
Grab somebody who you gel with really well, and distract yourself.
Good luck. :); 14 December 2008 at 12:54 pm
DMulan said...: gee babe, what happened to you?? :( you were upset two posts back too.. look at your prev post.. so many awards!! yay yay!! :)
do take care :)
such situations are not uncommon, just grin and bear with it and you will reach the better side of life in no time!; 14 December 2008 at 4:05 pm