Another year bites the dust. Like I said last year, this time too, the year passed before I realized.
It has been quiet eventful, more on the low notes both professionally and personally. Anyhow, I really cant wait for this year to end.

The year has been a whole lot of learning.

And the nicest thing I re-discovered was that no matter what happens, your family always stands by you.
In the times of happiness and distress, its the family you look upto, you count on and you cant bear the thought of giving up on them. Believe me, its the most wonderful thing God has adorned us with.

Like each year, things happened, things went right, things went wrong, met new people, became friends, lost some friendships, achieved my goals, missed some objectives, realized things, understood things, committed mistakes, rectified bungles, dreamt, wished, wanted things to happen, wished things to not happen.

As I look back into the year, I see myself growing up, mentally. I have gained some things, lost too. I discovered some new aspects of myself, I found myself going for things I had never thought of, I made myself learn new things, I forgot some. I understood many things, I could make out the differences in realities and mirages.

But anyways, overall the year had been a mentor. The good things and the bad things taught.

And now, I am all set to march towards the new year. time for celebrations. Time for learning new ventures, new lessons, time to take new tests.

And, I choose not to take/ make any resolutions, I have decided to take the life as it comes to me.. :D

And here is one New year wish for all of you..

I have not been into TV since a long time, but yeah I do catch up with some reality shows mostly Indian Idol or dance shows, and I despise the Big Boss and Borrow child shows.

But this, as they claim, is another reality show I am hooked to.. Its called "Raaz Pichhle Janam Ka" on NDTV Imagine.. Nothing like I believe in re-incarnation or someting or I like the show, but one thing for sure is, it has 100% entertainment value.

I mean, I envy the creativity of the script writers of that show. Yes, like every other reality show, it has got to be scripted. Absolutely. Obviously the name of the suggests- Imagine.

I have seen all the 5 episodes of the show till date. The anchor of the show, nonetheless, Mr. Ravi Kisan (yep, Zindagi jhandwa phir bhi ghamandwa fame) doesnt have any thing to do on the show, his script I believe he has crushed in the mixer and gulped down as he blabbers the same lines everyday without fail just altering the name of the volunteer on the show.

The main character of the show is some famous psychiatrist Dr. Trupti Jain, who claims to hypnotise the volunteer and conduct something called "past life regression" on them and takes them back to the journey of their last birth.


First thing I dont understand is, everyone who has volunteered for the show, how have they been so sure to have lived a past life?
Second, Dr. Trupti Jain can make people see their past lives not like as a story but scene to scene, happening to happening, and can take them to and fro to one moment from another and in no sequence.. Like an album, you can play song no. 12, then song no. 3 and then song no 15- like aything.. Huh!
Third, last night, Mr. Lilliput- the actor was on air, and Dr. Trupti Jain took him to his past two lives. I mean, two? are you sure?
Forth, Shekhar Suman the actor when on air, even during his hypnotism, seemed like he is acting. He was telling the happenings of his past life as if he has already known them and did not even try to pretend that he was under hypnotism.

All the people who come to the show suffer one phobia or the other and the phobia they are suffering is how they died in their past life.
I doubt what exactly is this hypnotism? I believe if these stories arent cooked up by the creators of the show, these have to be the sub conscious of the volunteers.

And on the other side of the thoughts, our Bhagwad Geeta says that we get Human life after passing through 84 lakh lives of being other species. And all these people who have come for this regression have had human lives this recently. Are they trying to prove the Bhagwat Geeta theory wrong?

Anyhow, creativity of the creators of this show is at heights. And I will keep watching it till the time it really pisses me off.. :D

I have always had this theory to keep expectations low or to be precise, to zero.
This way, you can avoid hurting yourself..
I know expecting is a way of self torture.. When you expect something out of a person and it isn't fulfilled, you feel bad. so the easy way out is, dont expect. If the other person does something for you going out of his/her way, take it as a bonus.
Few days back, I was having a conversation with this friend of mine which got me into thinking mode (yeah, I know in a long time though).
She says, you may pretend to not expect, but it is human to expect and if you say, you don't expect, it is not being modest, rather you are escaping the truth.
I kept thinking over it and then finally reached the conclusion, she is right.
Any person who is close to you, may it be your parents, siblings, best friends, or a special one, you tend to do things for them even if you have to trouble yourself or go through terrible inconvenience, you do, it is because you want to.
And you want them to do things for you the same way. You want them to be there for you in the moments of distress. This may and may not be in return of what you do for them. It hurts you if they are unable to make it on time for you.
You may ignore it for once, but somethings you are incapable of letting go. At times, you start listing down the times you have been there for them and things you did for them and the times they weren't there for you.
You may not convey it to them, you may conceal that you are feeling bad but doesn't it get suffocating at times? It does. Blood relations kept aside, it starts driving you away from them. And if you convey it to them, this might result in a disagreement and sometimes frictions.

Expectations are confusing in themselves.

Deep down, we all have expectations. We just learn to suppress them. For once this may be convenient. But in the end, they bind you with your loved ones.

I hate milk. Absolutely.
And I love that Jingle form our childhood that says "Piyo glass full dhoodh". But that doesnt make me not puke pver the sight of it..
I know, many of you would say, it is very essential, it is a complete diet, being a woman you need to drink milk, it is a source of calcium and blah blah..
But excuse me. I am not taking any of those.
I HATE MILK. Yes.
I have hated milk ever since I can recall.. I was made to drink milk when I was young. My mom has used every possible flavor and every possible method to fool me and make me drink milk. But no. No More. I HATE MILK.
People who coincide with this disliking of mine, lets form a club where we can discuss the ways to avoid milk and invent new excuses :D
And people who like Milk, please you can come back some other time.
And those who Love Milk, Sorry. I guess we had companionship till today only.
Yes. I am irritated. very much. Only because of milk. Because, I Hate Milk.

Oh well my last post was idiotic, but do not really take that a reason for my absence, I do not believe in suicides personally.
Yes I have been on a vacation and it was real nice, but why am I irregular and not catching up with you all, I really cant help the power cuts and the BSNL internet connection. However, I'll soon be back hopefully and do lemme know whats up with you guys :)

Raisa tagged me to take up this quiz on FB which is quite nice. So i took it up.
Even otherwise, I havent done anything here in a long time and Arjun badly wanted me to do a tag. So this one is for you Arjun.

Here are the rules:

1. Open this website : http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
2. Take the Personality Quiz (it's VERY short, 9 questions and easy, really)
3. Type your name after the instructions. Eg, XXX :
4. Copy Paste the result.
5. Tag some friends including me.

Richa Singhal

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
(ahaaann.. that is almost correct)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes. hehe..

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
(they call me the runaway bride)

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?
(they dint know it?)

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. (absolutely)

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
(no comments)

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.
:)

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.
blush blush

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.
*battling eyelashes*

You are all free to take up :)

Gmail and Gtalk are my lifeline these days. I do have an account for Yahoo, but I use it very occasionally.
Last night, just out of the blues I logged into my another long abandoned yahoo messenger account. It had been hacked and all, so i had to abandon it. I haven't logged into that account for ages. I logged into my mail box as well expecting yahoo to had delete it for non usage, but to my surprise, it was intact, but of course flooded with spam mails. I was just surfing through it when I found an email from a friend. There were some pictures attached. It was from Rick, an online friend. He was an Aussie.

And it all came back to me.

I was fresh into the college that was when I had my internet connection at home. Yahoo chats had been so in those days, I too used to pass a considerable time on them.. I would have bumped into him in some Chat rooms, I cant even remember the details. It has been so long.

Very calm, down to earth sort of person he was, as much as I remember. He was a photographer, located at Sydney, almost my age, I was 18 then. He lived alone with a friend who was his best friend's sister. Her name was Nancy. He use to tell me a lot about Nancy. She was under depression, unfortunately her mother and brother who happened to be Rick's best friend had been inside the WTC on 9/11. I remember he told me that when he was very drunk and could not even remember he told me about it the very next day.

His dad was a farmer living somewhere in the country side nearby and his mom lived in New York with his younger brother. He frequented to NY lot of times to see them.

When my id got hacked, I lost contact with him. He was there on Orkut, but anyhow, he deleted his profile. At times, when I read mails like how people found their long lost friends and relatives on social networking sites, I do search for him, but no luck yet. :)

I dont know why am I writing this, but since I recalled that friend of mine who is not in contact any more, and I am unable to locate him, I just want to let him know that he is being missed.

Now your turn to tell me about any such online friend of yours outside of the blogging world. You may or may not be in contact with them, but you still remember them and want them to know you do.